No Do Overs.

I haven't heard your voice in years

It has been too long since you whispered in my ear 

Since you kissed me on my cheek

And made my knees feel weak

I miss looking in those brown eyes

And knowing everything was alright

Sitting on your bed with our fingers intertwined 

It has been too long since you were all mine 

I need to hear that sweet voice, damn I miss your sweet voice 

I'd listen to it all day if I had the choice

I'd be with you all day if I had the choice

Tell you that I love you, until I lose my voice 

But those days are over

And there's no do overs. 

So Far Gone

The vase sits alone on the table, as the girl waits eagerly

He said he would be there shortly, so she sits, waits, patiently 

She hasn't seen him in weeks, says he's been busy with school 

She said don't worry, I understand, it's cool

Then hangs up the phone and cries to herself, all alone 

But he'll never say how she feels, so her feelings are never known

She glances at the clock, he's over an hour late 

Just sit here, she tells herself, he'll show up just you wait 

Another twenty minutes go by, she begins to lose hope

The phone rings and before it can ring twice she's already picked up 

"Hey babe," it's been so long since she's heard his voice

She hears him sigh, oh she knows that noise 

He says he's too busy, maybe another time 

She quietly wipes a tear, don't worry it's fine 

She says she still loves him, he hangs up 

Fury fills her blood, she's so fed up 

So sick of every excuse, they've become so absurd 

She throws the vase to the ground, as empty as his words

Where the flowers should have been, but he never did show 

He was never there to see her there, so he won't even see her go

But she's gone,

She's so far gone 

Keep Your Head Up

Lately I've felt that the sun just doesn't shine so bright
'Cause recently I haven't been able to see its light
I saw a glimpse, but it was quickly choked by the shadows
And my smile quickly gone, choked by the sorrows
Fighting back the tears so I don't drown in its puddles
The pain comes quick, no longer so subtle
My scars bleed out and my soul screams out
Suffocating in all this doubt
I used to be glass half full, but now it's feeling so empty
Don't know whats gotten into me
I used to be all smiles, bow I don't even know what a smile is
And, honestly, I'm kind of over all this shit
I try to hide it, but I feel it creeping out
And soon enough I won't be able to block it out
I have a civil war going on inside
And the demons seem to be the only ones that haven't died
I need to find the positivity of the day
Someone told me she's blessed 'cause she's got 2 arms and 2 legs
Damn, I needed to hear that about now
'Cause I've been feeling so stressed out
Be thankful for one more breath
Soon these demons will face their death
Soon the sun will shine so bright
Block out the shadows and fill your life back up with light
Keep your head up, I just have to keep my head up
Don't give up, I just need to keep my head up

Love Drunk

I'm drunk off your love

Hungover from your hips

Got that ache in my heart

And tingle on my lips 

That scent in the air

Reminds me you were here

My heart still beating fast

As the love beats clear

My mind goes back

To the first time

Love is a battle

But it sure as hell was worth the climb

And all the skipped beats

From when I saw your face

And each time

You stopped me in my place

The lost breath

And the sleepless nights

The loving talks 

And the brutal fights

The memories we made

They will never fade

But you left out the front door

Said you couldn't stay

No, not tonight

No, not ever

So now I try to sober up

But I'll be hungover forever

Follow it. Pursue it. Chase it.

It doesn't matter how crazy,
It doesn't matter how wild your dream is.
Follow it.
Pursue it.
Chase it.
Pour your heart, mind, and soul into it.
Turn the doubts and wonders into actions.
Don't ask "what if?"
But rather answer it.
Ignore the hate and criticism being yelled in your ear.
Instead listen closer to the whispers of encouragement.
And turn those whispers of support into cheers.
Soon enough those cheers will hush the boos.
Soon enough your dreams will be more than just dreams.
Soon enough your reality will be greater than you ever perceived.
But not until you take your dream and follow it.
Pursue it.
Chase it.
Pour your heart, mind, and soul into it.

Two Paths

I stare at this fork in the road with two differing paths-

One path a hundred years,

The other just one day. 

The answer seems so clear from there,

But there’s so much more.

One has you in it,

The other doesn’t.

Sure, I could have a hundred years

With money and cars,

Fancy houses and tons of friends.

Dogs and private beaches,

Year long vacations in Maui,

Oh, the good life.

That life that we all strive for.

The success.

The satisfaction.

The support.

The love of others.

While the other path is dirty.

No house, just living on the street.

No clothes to wear, no food to eat.

Lying here in the freezing snow.

No hope and no where to go.

I look at these paths,

Watch as everyone takes their hundred years.

They turn to me and ask,

“Are you coming?

It’s everything we’ve ever wanted.”

I shake my head and watch as they all walk by.

Sure, I could have a hundred years-

With money and cars,

Houses and friends,

Dogs and beaches,

Long vacations.

Living the good life.

But there is just one flaw,

You’re not there.

So I walk towards my last day,

Happier than I could ever be.

A Place I've Never Been

Take me home,
To a place I've never been.
A place I've never seen,
Where my hair blows in the wind.
Lets take a little hike-
From the misery of life.
That brings me back afloat,
Because I'm drowning in this strife.
Drowning in the doubt,
The fear and insecurities.
Hiding away in shame-
From all of my impurities.
So can we get away?
To a place I've never been.
With some familiar faces,
Because all I need are my friends.

The Fragile Heart

There's a lot on the mind of the girl in the corner
As her tears fall down on her broken heart
The picture ripped in half by her side
With the paper saying "We're better off apart"
She thought things were going smooth
The way she let down her guard
She never told him stop
Even though she knew he was going too far
All she wanted was love
The appreciation she never had
The love from the movies
That she wanted so bad
A kiss in the rain
But her love story was just a storm
The cuts bled deep
And the scars begin to form
Her tears begin to tattoo her face
After all they never seem to stop
Love conquers all
Or at least that's what she was thought
But maybe she had it all wrong
The meaning of this cliche
For maybe love does conquer
Just everyone in its way
As she lies there bleeding
Drunk on the thoughts
Suffering from pain
That only love brought
She tries to stand
But he cut her at the knees
She falls right over
With such a light breeze
Guess he never knew
How fragile was her heart
As he ripped up every piece
He never wanted her from the start
All he saw was skin
That looked nice up in his bed
Not realizing the heart in her chest
And the brain in her head
The soul inside
That may never trust again
Because the only thing she was looking for
Was someone to fall in love with

Beep, Beep, Beep

I get so lost in that twinkle in your eye

Time sits still as you walk on by

And my heart skips beats when you give that little grin

That transfers to my face oh, so big

Even as you leave and continue on your way

That smile stays on my face for the whole damn day

I Think about when I will run into you next

Hope I don’t trip over myself with every single step

And I hope my words can form themselves, because I know I’ll lose control

You have hold on my heart, mind, and soul

I look across the way and see her walking up

The rest of world blurs as I stare at her

Can’t hear a sound, but her beautiful voice

I hope that this moment never has to end

Wishing on airplanes that you will never leave

Stay here, right here by my side

Tell me again those words that you said

That night when we laid out for hours

Staring at the stars, you turned and said those words

“I love you”

Time froze, I froze, my heart didn’t beat

No sounds were made

Nothing

But those three words echoing

They echoed over and over and over

“I love you”

Even as you left and went on with your day

I could still hear you over and over again say

“I love you”

But then my eyes open to me staring at my ceiling

Turn over and I’m all alone

The alarm goes off: beep, beep, beep

Guess that whole time I was just asleep 

Ode to Her

I know that we haven’t spoken in ages

And it’s about time for me to start flipping pages

And stop staring at the past

Cuz they’re just memories, but oh they’ll always last

I can’t help but think about us

Everything we were and how easy everything was

Holding you in my arms, forget about the world

Nothing else mattered, but me and this girl

Your smile still has me mesmerized 

And everything you did, I still have it memorized

Written on my soul, written on my heart

Written everywhere so we will never be apart

But I said I wasn’t ready, so I just let you go

Now that’s a regret that my heart will always know

Cuz the green of your eyes and the light of your halo

Is an image that I can never let go

How you were so ticklish with every single touch

And every moment with you was always such a rush

But these are feelings that I decided to hide

Held them up deep, hid them all inside

Never let them out, so you never knew

That the only one ever on mind was always you

And now every girl I meet

It is always with you that they must compete

But they never stand a chance, because my heart is still yours

I said I’d never be in love, but damn I think you were my first

And now no girl will ever have a chance

You were my first and, hopefully, my last dance