2011, Another Year Gone

2011, another year lived and another year gone
A lot when right and a lot went wrong
But I wouldn't give up a single moment of it
I loved every single second, I must admit
There were moments that brought me clapping on my feet
Moments that will be tough to beat
And then there were some that brought me to my knees
Moments that were tough and darkness was all I could see
But each one brought its own lessons
And the importance of those I don't want to lessen
Each moment lead me to who I am today
And I loved each moment in every single way
Loved ones lost, but found in heaven
There lives ended here, but in heaven a new one would begin
God bless the broken road that lead me to right now
Because to this spot I wouldn’t have reached if You didn't allow
So don't pout that this year is over, smile because it happened
And thank God for your friends and the moments of laughin’
Bring on 2012, I dare you to be greater
But greatness is bound to happen sooner or later
To another great year, and to greater memories
Love all your neighbors and all your enemies
Smile every day, because you are still breathing
And never stop smiling until your heart stops beating

Moment for Us

Ever since I met you I haven't been able to wipe the smile off
I just wanna see you always, I just cant ever get enough
Something about your attitude, so contagious
And your beauty, it is just so outrageous
Your voice rings in my ear all day
And I will be here to listen to everything you ever say
I can stare in your eyes with no sound but your breath
Just sit here in this moment until our very death
And this smile, it will never fade
As long as by my side, you have always stayed
I don’t want to spend another moment without you
Because you are with me permanently, like a tattoo
Forever our initials carved upon that redwood tree
The first time I said I loved you, and you said that you loved me
We just sat there and stared into the night
You inside my arms, and nothing ever felt so right
Like that moment was made for us and was never gonna stop
Like life was a mountain and we had just reached the top
Never since day one has this smiled ever faded
And each day I thank God that for you I had waited

Just Maybe

You may see me to resemble a human complexion
Just, my thoughts may not be a true human reflection
By human nature I don't seem to abide
It’s like i have been internally rewired
You see hope in places I see distraught
I don't know, maybe its true that my heart long ago rot
And maybe thats why the smile will no longer appear
Maybe happiness is just something that I fear
Maybe it’s true that i am just a mistake
And thats why i have been left forsaken
Maybe I am just not meant to be here
If only there was a way i could make myself disappear
Or maybe i was made different for a reason
Like our minds are in different seasons
Maybe I am here to change some lives
To come and make sure that all survives
To lead a movement never heard of before
And to take all souls and restore
To fix the wounds and collect the brokenness
To save the world stuck in depression
To take the sleeping and make them awake
Or, maybe, just maybe, I really am just some mistake

Alrighty

I spend all my day waiting for a call
Not sure who from, but just from anyone at all
Just searching for that human companionship
Just looking for some sort of relationship
I don’t know if i am just some nuisance
Maybe you just want me out of your business
I try to get involved but always end up on the outside
I just want to see life from the flip-side
To be center of attention or loved by even one
I feel like maybe there is something that I have done
I feel like I don't relate, not with a single soul
Maybe its just because I am way too dull
Maybe its because i seem to have a rough exterior
But i just have a crying interior
Maybe God will be one of my pals
If He can just look past all of my fouls
Maybe he can just ignore my mistakes
Maybe He should just stick me on my stake
If only I hadn't burned down the road
But, for now, it is my life i am left to owe
If the only call i get is from God Almighty
I know that i will be alrighty

A Million Reasons to Smile

There may be times when you feel down
That you just cant help but frown
The last thing you want to do is smile
So you just haven't in a while
You feel like life just keeps getting worse
So out your mouth comes out a curse
But there are a million reasons to smile
Everyone’s doing it, its the new style
Smile because you have a life
Smile because you love your wife
Smile because you are living another day
Smile because God hears when you pray
Smile because you still have your friends
Smile because they will be there until the end
Smile because its contagious
Smile because it shows you're courageous
Smile because you are so beautiful
Smile because you won’t feel so stressful
Smile because there just aren't enough reasons not to
Smile because you ought too
Smile because this life is too short
Smile because it can’t hurt
Smile because the world is watching
And that smile may be what they are needing
Your smile may make someone’s day
Smile because of what it will portray
Your smile may just save a life
May make them want to drop the knife
A smile can go a million miles
So remember, there are a million reasons to smile

Stay Here Forever

We sit here hand in hand, and its like my worries are all gone

Like all I do is right and I can’t do any wrong

Feeling like this smile will never fade away

I really need to leave but all I want to do is stay

Here with you forever in this moment

I love right now, I don’t want to leave it, I will never forget it

It’s like the whole world is gone and its just me and you

And we just sit here together because there is nothing else we’d rather do

You look up and smile and lean your head on my shoulder

And I will always support you, I will be your rock, your boulder 

The time flies and its starting to get late

We should leave now, but we just wait

Trying to pause right now, and to never leave

But tomorrow we know this moment we will retrieve

Sit here again, in the same place

And you will lean on me in the same ways

Because you are all that I need, but leaving now is what we must do

But I will be here again tomorrow just sitting and waiting for you

Turn Me Up to the Clouds

You say that I am just a reject

I’m a cd that you are over so you’re just clicking eject

That I was useful once, but now I am just useless

That I am too needy and that you just need less

Guess you just pulled me on a leach and like a dog I followed

But you bit my heart, chewed it up and swallowed

So I am left lying on the floor, I’m bleeding

Wishing I still had you ‘cause you are what I’m needing

But you, you are too far gone

You are leaving me like the darkness at the crack of dawn 

But you won’t see my on my knees, you won’t see me pleading

Because I have new eyes that are clearing up my seeing

I was wrong to follow you like a one way street

When in the end I was just another piece of meat

So I turn away finally out of my cage

I take on a new goal and I fully engage

Because this cd will find somewhere new to play

I just press fast forward with everything you say

Just turn me on and turn it up loud

Because I have another dream of reaching to the clouds

Taylor Swift

Click here to tweet this to Taylor Swift!!!!

My mom is always telling me I can have any girl I wanted

But there is this one girl who has left me so enchanted

I feel like our lives could be one big love story

That me and you together could bring such glory

You would be the greatest thing that’s ever been mine

The sparks fly and your smile begins to shine

Speak now or forever hold your peace

Because these feelings are never gonna cease

And our song is the slamming screen door

If I had you, I could never want more

And you would read this poem if this was a movie

I will never grow up, you just do something to me

And long live this beautiful queen

Kanye why you gotta be so mean?

Kanye better watch out because I am here to avenge

There is nothing I do better than revenge

For me there could be no better gift

Than to spend one day with the gorgeous Taylor Swift

And if you were with me there would never be any teardrops on your guitar

Because me, I'd never break a perfectly good heart

All your songs of cheating would come to an end

Come to me and all your brokenness I will mend 

So you’d never again have to say we are never ever ever getting back together

Because you and I could make it in any weather

Everyday together could be the best day

Because I would love you forever and always

I think of you every time I think Tim McGraw

Still can't think of one single flaw

But to you I'm just invisible

If you only knew me we could a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable

Just come to me and I will keep you safe and sound

Nobody could hurt you as long as I'm around

You'll never have another picture to burn

Give me a chance, and your love I could earn

So can this be the beginning of the story of us

And it could just be the both of us

And our love would never go dead

Cause loving you is red

If you would like facebook me, or like tweet, or call me, or text me, or etc, that would be a win

But if not, I could always begin again

Click this to tweet this to Taylor Swift!!!!!!!!

Problem Solved

Don’t tell God how big your problem is 

Tell your problem how big your God is

Tell it that He will help you through it all

He carries you so you will never fall

He is there to fight the fight

He is there with all of His might

He is your umbrella when it rains

The medicine to cure all your pains

Your band-aid to stop the blood

Your ark when there comes a flood

He is your floaties in the pool

The puzzle piece to make you whole

He is in you, around you, and all of you

And He won’t leave no matter what you do

Won’t leave no matter what you say

He is with you every single day

He is the lion and the lamb, the Alpha and Omega

He is the winning lottery ticket, lotto million mega

Tell your problem it doesn't mean a thing

Even with everything it may bring

Your God is bigger, bigger and stronger

And that your problem won’t last any longer

Blind Questions

If I sang you a song would you listen to it every night?

If I wrote you a poem would you read it when it felt right?

Or would you throw me in a box labeled as junk?

Just throw me away like just another punk 

If I was a shirt would you wear me every day?

If I was a talk show would you listen to everything I say?

Would my legs grow weary from running through your mind?

And if I was with you, is love what I would find?

Would you give me everything that you got?

And would we make up every time that we fought?

I just want to be everything you need

The only other book that you will ever read

Will you still be there when I wake up?

Will you be there forever because you just cant have enough?

Would it be okay if your feet never touched the land?

Because I don't want to let you out of my hands

Don’t want to let you out of my sight

Just want everything to go right

If I was a jacket, could I keep you warm?

And could we cuddle up, when outside there is a storm?

So many questions all up on my mind

But for now I am just walking around blind

Bucket List

What’s on your list of things to do before you die?

Things that you would really love to try

Things that you have never done before

Because we all are going to die, something you cant just ignore

Your time on this earth is a limited one

So many things to do before its all done

So, before you let it all fly by

Run and do it, no time to even blink an eye

A set of things you've always wanted to do

Maybe its something like design your own shoe

Maybe its as complex as starring on tv

Or maybe as simple as planting a tree

Whatever it is just go out and do it

If your dream is to write then go ahead and be a poet

Go all out, you only have one life to live

So go out and give all that you can give 

Go out now, before your opportunity is missed

Set out and complete your entire bucket list

Brave New World

We all try in life to avoid the pain

But you cant have a rainbow, without a little rain

You wouldn’t notice the light, if you never saw darkness

If life was all fair then we wouldn't understand fairness

We’d all be living in a brave new world

And life as we know it would be all transformed

Same thoughts, same topics of conversation

Same song on the same radio station

Same routine day in and day out

No reason to smile, no reason to pout

This is the life of the brave new world

All individuality thrown out, hurled

So we can complain about all of the pain

But you cant have a rainbow, without a little rain

The Climb

I’ve seen the top, but I have lived at the bottom

I’m just a fallen leaf in the season of autumn

But you cannot keep me down

On this face you won’t see no frown

I’m on the climb back from this place

And my old self is leaving with no trace

Because I am not making this climb on my own

But with the Man who will never disown

The Man who came and rescued me

The Man we all strive to be

And no man can ever get in my way now

You can take this as my vow

Who can stop me with God on my side

You couldn’t budge me even if you tried

And with my God I will fear no evil

He’s brought me to the modern age, I have been living medieval

My life was nothing but I am now saved

And to my old ways I am no longer slaved

So I climb this mountain up to the top

And with my God I will never ever stop

Trying

I'm broken, lost, and out of place
Just trying to figure out my ways
Trying to find out this thing called life
Trying to rid my self of this strife 
Trying to live the way I feel right
To get out of the dark into the light
Because now I can't see where I am going
I have forgot everything I once was knowing
Like I just sold my soul
Living life like a fool
So i take a second to try and figure it all out
Trying to find a new life route 
Trying to find a new routine
Done with this rebel life of a teen
I'm just trying to get my life on track
Just trying to get my life back
To get the smile I once owned
The smile that you all had known
To inspire and motivate all around
To know exactly where I am bound
I'm trying to do it all right
And I know that I'll be alright 

Lap One

Im trying not to fall part

Trying to forget this broken heart

Trying to find out what went wrong

My heart singing that same sad song

My mind replaying that night over and over

Guess my life is just filled with 3 leaf clovers

Just my luck, always one clover short

And I am always the one left hurt

My eyes the ones that are left to cry

And my heart is left to bleed dry

It’s like it was all one big trap

Life is a race but I’m still stuck on the first lap

Looking back on all that has been

Like I’m still waiting to begin

Afraid to move on to what is next

Afraid that life may be too complex

But all I need is get on lap two

Before all these mistakes I redo

Just need to move on, to another stage

Before I get stuck in this lap one cage

Christmas Time

It’s christmas time, but theres no snow on the ground

I look all over but cant find a smile around

Everyone stressing over the presents they get

But thats not what christmas is about, how easy they forget

Its about how Christ came to rescue

Its about Christ coming to save you

A savior isn't what this world wanted

But He was something that we all needed

So we get it

So easy how we all forget it

It’s about the day this baby was born

And how sin from our body was permanently torn

No longer are we under sins control

But we don't even thank Him at all

We just think about our presents

And not what Christmas truly represents

So lets forget the presents that we receive

And forget about all the grieve 

Let’s just thank the Lord for what he’s done

Let’s thank God and His only Son

Waiting

I sit in the car, lights off music playing
Trying to listen to what You are saying
Because I am stuck not knowing what to do
When all I want to do is live for You
I'm just looking for a simple little sign
For what I am supposed to do with this simple life of mine
The ideas are spinning but none seem right
Just looking for the one that will bring Your light
Bring Your light to all that see
And show them all You can be
I'm not living for the fame and fortune
But trying to help those who live with no fortune
Clothe those that are clotheless 
And give hope to the hopeless
I'm sitting at the starting line, waiting for your whistling 
But for now I'm just siting here listening 

The Wind Blows

The wind blows through our hair and through the trees

We feel it but we do not see the breeze

We know it's there with no proof to show

But we don't need to see the wind to know

Seeing isn't believing, believing is seeing

I don't need to see the wind to know that it is blowing

I close my eyes and feel the air

Blowing all through my hair

Through my entire body and soul

I’m swimming in this windy pool

I can throw on a jacket to hide from the wind

Or I can intake the wind until the end

I may not see the wind in the air

But I can feel the wind with every prayer

The Fight of Life

I look out at my path, it's so hazy
Filled will all these people so lazy
Their dreams are so high but they don't even get up 
Before they've even started they've already given up
They've been told they can't do it
So they don't even attempt
They just grab a seat and watch their dreams fly by
Leaving before they even try
Theyre put down by everyone around
Who gave up the fight before even going a round
Before they even put those gloves on
They had already turned around to run
So for me, I step in the ring
Ready to take on anything that this life may bring
My fists tight ready to fight
I'm going to do this thing right
I may not have a knock out combo
But I'm going to fight life the way I know
With determination and perseveration 
With an uncanny amount of imagination 
I will bring this world things they never thought possible
As Walt disney said, "it's fun to do the impossible" 
So the bell rings and the fight begins
This life is my fight to win 

Angel and a Demon

All of my feelings that I want to express 
I put in these poems trying to impress
Just trying to get your attention towards me
And maybe the true me you can see
But maybe I'm just wasting my time
Me and you together would just be some crime
Your halo and my horns may get tangled up
And get the heavens all riled up
No angel is meant to be with such a demon
It may not be a relationship they would reckon
We're more likely to see Jesus hug the devil
Than see me with such an angel 
But it's your halo that keeps me going
And I will continue to write until you come to knowing
And maybe we can get all tangled
But until then my feelings remain inside strangled

If Only

If only you knew how I truly felt
How I think of you and my heart melts
When I hear your name I can't help but smile
It's gotten so bad I can't even fake a denial
My heart is yours for the taking
Hoping me and you is a masterpiece in the making
You're all I think about while I am waking
These feelings aren't anything I am faking
Your name constantly on my mind
Youre the reason that I continue my grind
Through the thick and the thin
Being with you is always for the win
Just wishing that you were here with me
And that my true feelings you could see
That you can see and reciprocate 
That these feelings can be our true fate
But I'm just sitting here thinking "if only"
But in reality I'm just sitting here so lonely

Love Crutch

Its moments like this that will never fade away

With everything we do and everything you say

Every time i get to see your smiling face

Gets my heart beating at a different pace

When our hands touch, makes my hair rise

I float away when I look into your eyes

And my heart melts when I feel your touch

You keep me up like a love crutch

My heart begins to race likes its nascar

I will always love you, no matter how bizzare

I just can’t get you out off my thoughts

You reeled me in on your line and I’m just another fish caught

Biting on this hook, I will never let go

You’re above all, everyone else is below

This smile on my face belongs all to you

It is a crazy thing what your presence can do

I’m just a babbling, stumbling fool

Just trying to play it cool

But you have me nervous so much

I feel myself weak so I lean on my love crutch

Hidden Pasts

You say you don't know who I am
Good, you don't want to know what in this brain I've crammed 
I've done things that'd make the heavens rejoice
And I've done things I hope I never have to voice 
I've seen things of heaven and things of hell
I've seen things I would never ever tell
I've seen things that have left me broken 
But I take this life as a golden token
I've done things that have broken me down
I've seen things that prove why the King wears His crown
You ask me how I'm doing I say "good" with a smile
Even if I haven't been happy in some while
I won't bother you with my sorrows
Because you never know if there will be a tomorrow
So take the good and take the bad
Take the happy and the sad
Take it in all with gratitude
And show the world your positive attitude
Because we all have our broken past
And those feelings may always last
But with a smile on our face
We can make this world a much happier place 

Dreams

Lying in bed to dream of something that will never be

Then open your eyes and back to reality you see

Just praying that something will change

That your life will somehow rearrange

To take an inclining change so steep

To the life that you dream about in your sleep

Dream with your eyes wide open

Take action instead of sitting back and hopin'

The something that needs to change is you

If you ever want this dream to come true

Take life by the horns, don't be so passive

Or you'll be stuck to see the world is passin’

Pedal to the medal until you reach your goals

Your body and mind can be some powerful tools

So get out of bed and live those dreams

Because if you take action you can make this life supreme 

Carpe Diem

In my heart I hold so much pain

Because my sorrows have remained 

My eyes have poured out oceans of tears

And my soul holds so many fears

My fists have clenched and thrown blows

So many memories I wish I didn’t know

I have broken down like fallen buildings

I have left my heart around for the stealing

My mind has turned over and over just thinking of her

And moments have gone by just in a blur

The butterflies have fluttered and my heart has raced

So many feelings in my life can be traced

And I wouldn't trade a single moment of it

Because I wouldn't be here without them I must admit

Every single moment, every single feeling

Every single second that I spent healing

All led me here, to this very moment

This is my life to seize, and I am going to own it

Mr. Me

You look at me wanting so much more

And you deserve the best that's for sure

So I look deep within to find my inner knight

Just trying to be mr right

But I look and I'm just mr wrong

I've been lying to you and myself for so long

Trying to be something I'm not

Not living the way that I was taught

I'm trying to just be your mr perfect

But you'd find so much wrong with my mind if you’d just search it

Maybe mr perfect isn't your mr right

But maybe mr right is my own self I've been trying to fight

My true self, and my true spirit

Maybe I'm the song your hearts been looking for, I just need to let you hear it

Because my heart is just singing out for you

And maybe thats all that mr right is supposed to do

Take the Stage

We all have our own jobs of different wages

Different jobs for God’s different stages

An opportunity to show Him in different places

To show God’s love to all different faces

He gives us all a mic to tell our story

And each story we will give Him the glory

He gives us this stage not to show off our skill

But gives us these skills to carry out His will

And each speech should be to praise the Lord

To tell how His body was broken and His blood was poured

To save us from our own nature

No matter how high or low our stature

His love unconditional from the beginning to end

All broken hearts, disease, and illness He will mend

He doesn’t just give us the mic to hold

But gives us this mic so His story will be told

Challenging us to speak up and be bold

To warm up hearts that have grown cold

To be the role model this world has grown to need

And to trust Him that His will will lead you to succeed 

The world will hate you as it has hated Him

But to spread His love should be your only whim

So take the stage and sing His song

And soon enough the entire world will be singing along

From the Inside Out

My soul is screaming, I can’t contain it

He doesn’t want half in-half out, but wants us to commit

From the inside out I will live for Him

Go deep in depth, His word is nothing to skim

What my soul screams so will my mouth

His love for me reaches ‘round from north to south

And so will mine for Him and His will

Sacrificing myself for Him is just part of the deal

Our sins forgiven through His son

My only payback is His will be done

Oh how He loves us so

I just wish the entire world would come to know

One day His kingdom will reign down on earth

How it was meant since the very first birth

Lord, take control of my entire being

Allow You to be all that my eyes are seeing

Your Word all that my ears hear

And the hairs on my back neck to rise when you are near

From the inside out I will live for You

For my heart, Lord, You have made brand-new 

Rear Mirror

There is nothing I miss more than the old times

Back when everything was as smooth as poetic rhymes

When everything fit as perfect puzzle pieces

You were the peanut butter to my reese’s

The milk to my cookie

We made plans, but we were always playing hooky

Back when the days were easy

And it was only car rides that made us queazy

Car rides to no particular destination

We didn't think, no hesitation

Always on our feet like “verb, its what you do”

And I would do anything as long as I was with you

Just anything to see your smile’s dimple

Back when life was nice and simple

When there was no society telling us how to act

And knowing that tomorrow isn't a guaranteed fact

Yesterday is gone, lying in the rear mirror

I just wish that we were still there

Everything

Such a large world, with so many people.

Seems like you can never get away,

But even in the most crowded room

I feel completely alone.

I look around trying to relate,

Nothing.

So I fake a smile and crack a joke;

They laugh and turn away.

Again I am left alone. 

I look out the window, looking, searching for;

Something.

Something that can wipe the pain,

That can make me feel wanted, needed.

It doesn’t matter what it is,

I just need something;

Anything.

Then I realize that you can never be satisfied

Until you are satisfied with yourself.

Yeah I am different, I may not relate with you.

But thats me, and me is what I am meant to be.

Accepting who you are is,

Everything.

Stutters

You look at me, but you don’t notice

What me and you can do if we became an us

I see your smile that just lights up my day

I can’t help but hang on to everything that you say

Your laugh, the sound I hear in my head constantly

The way you always look so perfectly

The way you look at me when I am near you

Its like, it’s like you just look right through

Like I am just standing there a ghost

Maybe my imagination is just playing a hoax 

I see you and the butterflies flutter

I see you and my words come out as stutters

I trip over my own feet

Just seeing you living by your own beat

That beat, the new beat to my heart

Wishing we didn’t have to be apart

So I just stand in line waiting my turn

Until it is your heart that I earn

Take your time, you’re worth the wait

I’m just hoping, praying that you’re my fate