Blame it on the Youth

We only live once, so why get so stressed? 

Living so young, these times are the best

Just kicking it with friends, really have no worries

Just living life so when I’m older have some stories

Going out, doing stupid things

Who really cares what all these people think

I’m just doing me, trying to have some fun

Before we all know these chances will be done

And all we will have are our memories

So let’s all be friends, I don’t need any enemies

Let us all love, don’t need any hate

So let’s go out and make this life great

Don’t worry about their opinions

Because your shoes, you’re the only one that's in ‘em

They don’t know what’s going on in your mind

To your life they’re just blind

So that frown that you have on your face

Here’s a smile for replace

Put it on, yeah that looks real good

The same smile you wore when you were a young kid

When we used to run from the girls with the cooties

Now we’re just chasing after the girls with the booties

But one day I am going to catch that treasure

Until then I am just living for the pleasure

Blame it on my youth

Yeah, ‘cause that’s the truth

So, this stress that I am feelin’

I’m gonna cast out, never gonna reel in

Because to the stressin’ I am all done
Time to go out and have a little fun

Take advantage of this life I was given

Instead of being locked down like prison

Because we are young

Because we are young

Road to Hell

You are not judged by your words, but by your actions

Not judged by your mistakes, but by your reactions

But just because you help the needy

Doesn’t mean your heart isn’t greedy

And just because you say the right thing

Doesn’t mean evilness is not something that your heart can bring

The road to hell is paved with good intentions

That are done for all the wrong reasons

Living just for you and for nobody else

Controlled by the money, controlled by the wealth

Controlled by your wallet and what it can buy

Controlled by our personas and each and every lie

Trying to conform into these people on the TV

Just trying to be the “bee’s knees”

But we’re all living in pain like the bee’s sting

Acting like we cannot feel a thing

Like to all these pains we are just numb

Afraid to admit the thing that we’ve become

We are all just trying to find our way

But we are selling our souls each and every day

Doing all these things that media tells us

And over all these materialistic things we obsess

Driving around in these fancy cars

Trying to act like these fancy stars

Trying to reach the top, stairs built with cash

But if we continue living this way our life will end as ash

We just throw our morals aside

And down the road to hell we all go in stride

Find Me

I walk around this world just trying to find my way

But I feel more lost every single day

I look around this world so big, yet so empty

Looking all over just trying to find me

Trying all these things ‘cause they are the new “in”

Not trying to be me, just trying to be them

Trying to fit into the “it crowd”

Doing all these things, not saying that I’m proud

I lost myself, didn’t know who I was

Trying to be the cool kid so I could get the applause

Standing on stage so I could take my bows

Settled for nothing so I won’t say no vows

Tired of standing out so I just try to fit in

So I get lost in this life full of sin

Not seeing what I’m doing, ‘cause I’m living in a blur

Saying anything at all so I could get with her

No kiss and tell, it’s more like kiss and shout

Trying to fit in so I won’t be a cast out

So my old self is hidden away and tied up

Took my old life and ripped that all up

Consumed by the crowd, consumed by the world

No longer have my soul because it was just sold

Sold for the fortune, sold for the fame

Sold so I could hear the whole world shout my name

Tearing anyone down who ever gets in my way

Use you ‘til you’re useless then I would betray

Turn your back and feel the stab of my knife

Didn’t care about anything at all, but my own life

Didn’t do all the things that I should

Only did the “right” thing to make myself look good

Living this life, feeling so empty

Yeah, but I was just trying to find me

Man in the Mirror

I put on this straight face like everything is fine

When there is so much insecurity swirling around my mind

I try to act like I have it all figured out

When really I’m being destroyed by this heart full of doubt

Filled with this head so confused

Filled with this past of being so used

Covered with these bruised to remind me

I look around all over just trying to find me

Trying to forget the mistakes of my past

But I can’t outrun them, because they chase me so fast

I look in the mirror and see this broken reflection

See an empty stare filled with no motivation

There’s a smile on his face, but his eyes are so empty

He tries to act strong, but his interior is so wimpy

Tries to act all cool and collected

The chaos inside is never reflected

Afraid to show the world his true self

So he just hides away in his shell

Afraid to even poke out his head

So he stays closed up instead

Afraid to portray any emotion

Afraid to show any commotion

Afraid to show any panic

When really he has always been so frantic

He is afraid of so many things

But he will never tell the anxiety that the smallest things bring

Inside is such a mess

But he will never confess

So he continues to live this lie

Trying to be a completely different guy

The man in the mirror reaches out and the mirror shatters

The glass hits the ground and clatters

And I’m left to stare at the broken reflection

Showing clearly all its imperfection

Love Inceptions

Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve love

Like I’m not good enough for someone to waste their love on

Love fills the air, so I don’t take a whiff

The smell so strong, but I won’t take a sniff

Dodging Cupid’s arrows as he tries to lure me in

Because love is a game that I can never win

I have tried and I have failed

But it has rained and it has hailed

So I throw up my umbrella

Trying to avoid the glass slipper of Cinderella

Trying to get out of this storm

Because so many cuts and scars have formed

All these bandages on my chest

Love has taken my heart, eaten it up, and digested

So I sit here and try to recover

Umbrella over my head to hide under

So many fish swimming in this flood

And in the water drops a few drops of blood

Soon the surrounding water is dark red

From all this blood I have shed

As my body begins to feel weak

Cupid looks at me and says he is on the brink

So he tries to whip something up

But in the end it just tears me up

The angel stabbing me with her horns

Leaving me once again torn

Leaving me to drown in my own sorrows

As love continues with its broken promise

With all these broken perceptions

Thrown into my head these love inceptions

Saying that love is supposed to heal

Then why is pain all I have come to feel?

Love continues to take its stabs

Taking so many I can hardly keep tabs

I just look down to my marked body

And think of all the memories they embody

Guess love is something I just lack 

Soon enough Cupid just turns his back

Flaps his wings and flies away

Love will just have to wait another day

The Life I Picked

I lie in bed for hours just thinking of you
Thinking if I could go back there's so many things I would do
All the chances I had to make you mine
I would make you mine every single time
I can't believe I let a girl like you go
And now regret is all my heart's left to know
All that my heart's left to feel
For another opportunity with you I would kill
Would give my life for just one more day
Because there are so many things that I have to say
You are the only girl that I have ever loved
But I knew deep down I would never be enough
So I never even gave us a chance
I would do anything for just one more dance
To hold your hand in mine, to just gaze into your eyes
To take back all of my lies
So many lonely nights, with just me and the thought of you
I had so many opportunities, but each one I blew 
So each night I pray for just one more
As I lie here in bed and watch as the clock strikes four
I don't know how many more nights I can handle
Without your hand there to hold
Without your lips there to kiss
How each and every night I miss
They say live life without any regrets
But this decision is one I will always come to fret
I pinch my arm just hoping this is just a dream
And you will be here again with your smile's beam
And I can look you in the eye
Tell you I am going to be a whole new guy
If you ever need a hand, I'll be there
If you ever need someone to listen, I'll be there
If you ever need a shoulder, I'll be there
If you ever need anything at all, I'll be there
There's nothing else I'd rather do in life
Than be able to call you my wife
I know that I have made some mistakes
And I have been nothing but fake
But these words that I am writing
Are the words that my heart is crying
I am willing to change my whole being
Oh girl, I am begging
But, no matter how much I pinch and pinch and pinch
The life in front of my eyes doesn't even flinch
The clock continues to tick
And I am just left to live the life that I picked

What's Done is Done

You can't go back, you can't change time

You can't take back your words, they're a done crime

You can't rewind, you cant erase

You cannot move, you're stuck in this place

Can not leave, there's no where to go

Should have said yes, instead you said no

Said no, that you don't want a piece

Now your heart's uneasy, never at peace

Full of regret, wishing you could go back

But it's too late you're too far off track

You tried to keep it inside, but then you just blew

Now you're left thinking, what did you just do

Look around at the mess that you made

Thinking about the incident that just won't seem to fade

Stuck in your mind, keeps replaying

And you keep listening to the things that you're saying

Listening to every word, can't believe you're saying them

That's not you, no it couldn't have been

Where the fury is coming from, you don't know

But you're just erupting like a volcano

Molten lava just pouring out your mouth

And everything continues to go south

You're just burning everyone in your way

Breaking them down with every word you say

You tried to keep inside, but the bag it just ripped

And now, like a light switch, you just flipped

Just looking for the switch so you can make it stop

Trying to re-film it, 'Take it from the top'

But life isn't a movie, there's no reshooting

What's done is done and there is no redoing 

Cursed

He says that all of our past mistakes are forgiven

And a new life we are given

But why then do I still feel like the old me

Still the same horrid man I used to be

All these impurities in my head

I just want to put them to bed

But they seem to be permanently stuck

By evilness my heart has been struck

And it is leaking into my soul

So I am just stuck being so sinful

I just can’t ever stop

I just wish my life I could swap

Just be a whole new man

Because I cannot stand the man I am

Cannot stand the man I’ve become

I am just slowly coming undone

Rotting from the inside out

The evil spirits inside just want to shout

So they just tear through my skin

Making me live in this life of sin

And I feel like there is no escape

And they have taken my life to rape

To strip, destroy, and to leave bare

So I get down to my knees for prayer

But when I open my mouth to speak

The evil spirits leave me too weak

So I just sit there, no words spoken

Sit there on my knees just broken

Cannot stand, cannot talk

Cannot get up from my knees to walk

Sit there frozen, sit there numb

Feeling useless, like complete scum

And from my eye a little tear drops

And from my knees I flop

Falling down, face first

Guess my life was always meant to be cursed

My Mind

These things on my mind that won't seem to leave
All of these memories that I don't really need
Reminding me of the man I used to be
Showing me things I don't need to see
Because I am trying to be new
But my mind is trying to say, "This is really you"
Telling me I can never change, I will always be the same
I can try to brush away the temptations,but they will always remain
Trying to get me to go back to my old ways
Go back to the life I had back in the old days
And all the progress that I have made
Seems to regress, because the memories won't fade
All they do is scream to me louder
Trying to make me think my morals don't matter
Saying go back to the brokenness and pain
All these memories driving me insane
I am just stuck in my own cell
Someone save me from myself
Because there is a battle going on within
And this battle is tough, don't know if I can win
I cannot do this on my own
Cannot get over this old life I have known
It is always there in the back of my mind
Always there to remind
Remind me of who I really am
But that's not who I really am
I am new and I can defeat my mind
Because my life is on play and I will never rewind

To My Parents: Thank You

It’s funny how I had the greatest things so near

But it took me leaving to be able to see it clear

It was like I never knew I had it

So I just took them for granite

Like they’re only doing what they’re supposed to

Like they’re only doing these things because they have to

But they never did, they just did it because the wanted

They’ve been doing these things since I was a kid

Since I was a baby, since I was first born

But I never thanked them so my heart is torn

I just want to tell you guys you are the best

And I’m so glad I have you over all the rest

You gave me all you had to offer and so much more

And I don’t know what you guys did it for

I didn’t deserve it, I was so selfish

Yet you guys were always so selfless

Killing yourself with all this work

You never complained even though I was always such a jerk

Acting like I just wanted to get away

And I won't regret anything more than somethings I did say

You guys gave me everything, but I acted like it wasn’t enough

But you guys were killing yourselves for me, it must have been tough

I just hope that I can be half of what you guys were for me

Because you guys are the only thing that I want to be

My heart is overflowing with love

And I am so thankful God sent you both from above

You have always been here when I needed you most

If I did anything slightly good you were always there to boast

I know I always acted like I was embarrassed

But now that it’s over I sort of miss it

All of the stories of when I was a kid

How we went into that restaurant and I ran and hid

You know which one I’m talking about dad

I think it was that one in San Fran

And mom how you always tried to act so tough

But all I had to do was hug you and that was enough

And it’s like you forgot you were even mad

Oh, how I miss the childhood I had

So when you guys are old and can hardly walk

You can move right in with me, there will always be a spot

So thank you guys for just being who you are

You will always be my guardian angels and my northern star

Hibernate in Love

I was lost, just feeling so hopeless

Would have been done if I wasn’t here ropeless

But I’m glad it didn’t end that night

Because, before you, hope was far out of sight

I was left here, could not move on

I couldn’t really tell you what was wrong

But you came along and made me whole

The only thing that can truly satisfy my soul

My soul that was heading straight to hell

Until one day an angel of God fell

Fell straight into my arms

Came to protect me from all harms

Protect me from all these worldly pains

And gave me a whole new life to gain

You led me with just your halo alone

Showed me things that I had never known

You were the key that removed me from this cage

The only therapy that could handle all this rage

For your love has always been so soothing

Life is hard, but you take away the sting

They told me I wasn’t good and I believed them

But you came to me and said, “who are they to condemn

You are good, you are worthy, you are beautiful”

Before you I thought I could never be full

I was just another empty cup 

But then you came to fill me up

To fill me with a new purpose

Told me that I wasn’t useless

Which was becoming what I thought I was

I can’t put into words what your presence does

It just shows me this life is worth living

Because, before you, there was so much I was missing

And I don’t want to miss another moment

Because I enjoy every second, I must admit it

I just can’t help but smile when you are by my side

I love when we’re together, I don’t ever want to divide

We are stuck together in these parentheses

Our time here is limited so every moment we must seize

But if you just wanted to sit here I would

Just sit and gaze into each others eyes, I could

Just embrace you here and never leave

Before you I was so naive

Didn’t know what living was all about

Then you came and made my whole life reroute

Because if I continued, I was heading down a cliff

And I don’t know what I’d do if this love was just a myth

If you were never real, just an image of my imagination

If you were just a dream, I’d sleep forever in hibernation 

And please just never wake me

Because if you weren’t here this life would break me