No Regrets

They say live life with no regrets,
Yet my decisions won’t leave my head.
Told you I wasn’t ready, but I knew deep down I was.
Said I didn’t have time, yet you were always on my mind.

Said I couldn’t do the distance,
yet it is our distance that is now killing me.
Always on my mind, always in my thoughts,
But I will never tell you that.

So I try to move on, forget we ever happened.
Forget about that night, and the many to follow.
Told all my friends that I didn’t like you,
There was no crush.
But now you are gone, the opportunity has left,
And now it is my heart that’s crushed.
I wish I could take it all back,
But they say live with no regrets.

Life's Handbook

No one ever said life was gonna be easy 
But there's a hand guide to help you through
A little thing called the Holy Bible
Written for me and you

Telling of stories of love conquering evil doers
A little king conquering the giant 
How grace was given through His sacrifice 
How every sin is forgiven, no matter how defiant 

For God says He will pull you through any struggle
Even when stuck in the the stomach of a whale
God's love is there, it is everywhere
It is unconditional, and it can never fail

Believe it or not you become whole in the brokenness
Because God gives you the strength when all hope seems lost
So sing praise in your tragedies 
Because there's always something found,when it seems everything is lost

The devil will try to strip you from everything 
Your crop, your stock, your kids, he'll even try to take your health
But God calls for us to be a faithful servant 
And to trust Him over any one else

Because His love will always deliver
From pain into His loving arms
Says do not be afraid, but be courageous 
Because I am here with you, and I'll protect you from every harm

No matter how far you have fallen
If you think you've slipped through the cracks
There's no area he cannot reach
And He can always bring us back

Through our struggles, our worldly struggle
He provides us with His power
Says with it you can conquer anything
So step up and do not cower

He says you are never alone
That He is always here
And every prayer we shoot up
He is always there to hear

Says any and every prayer will be answered
The way He knows best suits us
Says to believe in His actions
To know He is always there, telling us to trust

Telling us life is so much more than we are told in the media
What we see on the tv
That there's more than a full wallet
Telling us life isn't found in just being so greedy 

Life isnt found in the popularity 
Isn't found in the money and cars
Isnt found with the jewels 
Isn't found in being some star

Isn't found in the lustful actions
Isn't found in the women's body
Isn't found with that flat stomach
Isnt found in living life as some "hottie"

Isn't found in the one night stands
Isn't found in the materialist mounds
Isn't found from the human acceptance
Because God's love, is the only place life is found 

So when life gets tough and gets you down
Take yourself off the hook
For God says to put your misery on His shoulder
And just know,every answer,the only love you need,can be found in this very book

Real Men

My recording of this on YouTube

I hear all these people saying man up, man up, man up; but what does that really mean?

Is it really as simple as what we see onscreen?

Is it really solving problems with just bare fists,

Finding girls to manipulate and add to some list?

Never showing emotion, never dropping a tear

Never being scarred, because a man has nothing to fear?

Conquering all with that S on your chest

Gotta go out and prove you're better than the rest

Stacking up the money, collecting all those cars

Showing off to neighbors just to raise up all the bars

So now theyre so frantically trying to keep up with the Jones

Trying to take down your kingdom like Attack of the clones

All just trying to be that king of the mountain

Because a true man will always win

Business by day, party by night

Mullet of life describes it so right

CEO, stacking up the money

Then it's time to play boy, pick another bunny

Flipping through the magazine to find the perfect female

Because you know what her under your arm will tell

Just doing what you see on the tv

Use her all up, then leave her like debris

Find another woman, treat her all the same

Don't even bother to even learn her name

Yeah, because that's what men do

Yeah, you really think that's true?

A real man gets to the know the heart, before he ever meets the body

Because she's another soul, not just another hottie

Just because you leave the next day, doesn't mean your soul ever left her

Because it was also your soul that entered

And it was also her soul that you fooled with

And that can never be undid

So a true man doesn't care about some list

Because its all about quality, not the quantity you've kissed

And a man, doesn't care about some car

Doesn't try to live his life like some big star

Just need a roof not some crazy mansion

They don't need any extra attention

A real man is humble with his accomplishments

Doesn't throw them out, fishing for some compliments

A real man will help someone in need

Even behind closed doors, he doesn't need anyone to see

A real man can forgive, as God has forgiven us

And if he's ever wronged you, a real man will confess

A real man doesn't need to drink away his sorrows

Because even though today is tough, he knows theres no guaranteed tomorrow

A real man doesn't hide behind his humor

Doesn't allow those lustful images to attach to him like a tumor

A real man doesn't need to lie and cheat

A real man doesn't fear defeat

A real man doesn't run away

But will there ever be a real man to stay? 

Mother's Day

I’ve got to question why we have to set aside a day

To turn to our mom and say a little thanks

Just for 24 hours, and we think that is enough

When for us they’ve given so much up

I think we need to turn to them everyday and say thank you

Thank you mom, for everything you do

From all the nights that I kept you up crying as a baby

To all those grocery store tantrums, still crying like a baby

To all those baseball games and practices you drove me to

And I don’t think that I ever even thanked you

How you’ve always been there to support my every dream

When I was ever down, you were there to pick up my self esteem

Telling me I could be anything I wanted

If I ever did anything good, you’d always be there to flaunt it

And if I was ever out of line you were right there sternly

But you always put up with so much, like a Texas drive just listening to Barney

I love you and you love me

Guess we’re just one happy family

And I wouldn’t have it any other way

So mom, I want to give you more than just one day

I want my entire calendar to be filled with showing you love

Just want to grow into a son you can be proud of

Mom, I just wanna thank you for being there to turn to 

Without you, I don’t know what I would do

Probably just be dead in a ditch somewhere

Because I’d be nothing if you weren’t there to care

If you weren’t there to keep me in line

And mom, I owe you much more than just these simple little rhymes

Mom, I owe you my entire life

Because without you in my life I’d be living in strife

And I know so often I took you for granted
Yeah, I must admit it

And so often I showed you hate

But you still loved me anyways

Not once did you give up on me, even when I gave up on myself

You were always there to believe in me, even when there was no one else

And I thank God every single day that you are my mother

Because looking back I would prefer none other 

You taught me how to stand tall

How to get right back up when I would fall

When I was ready to give my dreams up

You were always there to cheer me up

You always lived your life so selfless

But me, I still lived so selfish

And I hate the person that I was to you

Acting like I didn’t even need you

Thinking that I deserved better

Not realizing I already had the best mother

Right in front of my eyes, I didn’t even notice

Where was I even looking, how did I not see it?

Well there’s no more of that, you can hold me accountable

Because that old me, I’m gonna disable

And the only switch that I will turn on 

Is to go and love that woman

The one who gave up everything

Just so that I could have anything

And even though your wallet was never full

You still always gave me a heart full of gold

Because your heart was always rich with love

Always so pure like a dove

Mom, I just want to show love to you every single day

Happy Mother’s Day

Mother's Day- Spoken Word

Six Feet Deep- Spoken Word

His Response

We live our lives feeling so weary

I heard about God and just ask “Oh, where is He?

Cuz I’m waiting, but I don’t see Him

Does He even hear me? Cuz I need Him”

Cuz I was so lost, I had fallen so far off track

Thought there was no way that even He could bring me back

Saying “Oh, yeah, I’ve heard about His Son before,

But I don’t know what He was coming down to earth to die for

Oh they were ‘His people’? Then why’d they nail Him on the cross?

What was the message that He was trying to get across?

Oh yeah, He thinks he can save me, thinks He can be my spirit

Yeah I’ve heard the words, but bro I don’t need it

Thanks though, for the thought

But I’m just gonna send my soul down to hell to rot

There’s so much on this earth that I’d rather spend my life on

I don’t have enough time to spend on this Jesus man”

So I just didn’t

People told me His word, but I just didn’t listen

Just kept living my life in sin

Didn’t want to leave this life I was living in

Didn’t really notice how broken I truly was

Just trying to do the things that a normal kid does

You know, just drinking and hooking up

If my cup was ever empty I always had something to fill it up

Just drinking away all my sorrows

Living for the night and never for tomorrow

Because I already knew what tomorrow had in store

Because inside me there was always a raging war

And each day I battled

Each day I lived so rattled

Blowing up, just another explosion

My soul suffering from so much corrosion

Because I was just living in too much anger

Always said life was a bitch and I always did hate her

Sorry for the language, it’s just the only way to explain

All the things jumbling up in my brain

Because I was just throwing tantrums on the daily

Got so bad I knew even my family began to fear me

Just screaming in their face, just yelling and cursing

Not sure exactly what I was pursuing

Like I said, I was just so broken

Because the feelings inside went unspoken

Just inside me boiling up

Until one day I would just blow up

And I was a volcano constantly erupting

I was just so damn disgusting

Until one day I just broke down in tears

There’s gotta be more to life than what I’m living here

Then I heard this voice so pure

And I know it may sound obscure

But I knew that it was God Himself

And I knew He was there to free me from myself

Telling me that it didn’t matter how far I had fallen away

He had never left my side for a single day

Told me He was always there with His arm fully extended, but I never reached for it

Guess I was too busy living my life so foolish

But He told me my mistakes are forgiven

Said a new slate I am given

A new slate that can never grow dirty

Said it washed away all of my impurity

But I told Him, “Lord, I’ve sinned against you too much”

And He responded, “You are free from it with just a simple touch”

So He proceeded, touched my right in my heart

Told me He was giving me a new start

Told me my old self had just died

And there was now a new Holy Spirit inside

Told me I am now His child

And for the first time in a while, I smiled

And for the first time I believed these words

All the ones I had previously ignored

Because He reached down His arms to save me

And He told me He would never betray me

And for the first time in my life, the weight off my shoulders were lifted

And a second chance I was gifted

So I guess now I am just trying not to blow it

So I gave up my life and now the Lord owns it

The one who now lives inside me, forever bonded

Saved simply because He responded

A Place In My Heart

It’s crazy to look at all the things we’ve seen,all the place we’ve been, all the friends that we           have made

And no matter how much our lives have changed, how the pages have flipped, all the                       memories we’ve made, they will never fade

Throughout all the seasons, throughout all the years

Y’all have been the friends, to stay throughout the tears

And it doesn’t matter about the miles we’re apart

All of you will always have a place in my heart

For when I go back and tell the story of my life

I will tell how you were there for me day and night

And I know now, most of our lives have changed

We’ve gone different paths and our priorities have rearranged

But y’all are still the ones who influenced me the most

Because when I was down, it was you who gave me hope

And when I look back at the memories we had

I can’t help but smile and wish I could have them back

And I’ll always hate myself for taking those days for granite

Guess I never knew one day they would vanish

From all those recesses that we spent playing skill

To all those long days we spent on the baseball field

And playing Just Dance all through the night

At the football games yelling,”fight, fight, fight”

To all those movie nights we had on the weekend

Why did all those times have to come to an end?

So I guess I just wrote this to let you know

Even though we’re spread apart, I will never let those times go

Yes our lives have changed and we’ve gone different ways

But even  as the years pass, I’ll always remember the days

So even though we are all miles apart

All of you will always have a place in my heart

Poisonous Thorn

I came into this world, nothing but a clean slate

But didn’t take long for the world to fill my plate

Filled it with its lies and all its corruption

Filled it with its dark images of destruction

Showing me how to lie, steal, and cheat

Stuck this all on my plate, the only thing it gave me to eat

So with this, the world started to form me

With each experience it began to mold me

All starting with this thing called love

How it’s always there until things got tough

Because we stand at the altar and say those “holy vows”

Really we’re just lying straight to our future spouse

The world telling me that love expires

Because this world is just filled with cheats and liars

Telling me that I just shouldn’t trust

That all my decisions should be made purely on lust

Find a nice girl with a nice little booty

Because the only thing that matters in this world is beauty

And now that I’ve got this hot little spouse

I need to go work on that palace like house

Just focus on the money, ‘cuz it can buy happiness

No need to be nice, ‘cuz the world just loves sassiness

Just have to destroy and rule all that I can

Because power is the only thing that can make me a man

And there is no way I can say how I feel

Got to keep acting fake, ‘cuz this world just ain’t real

There’s no way I can show any emotion

Nah, this would start too big of a commotion

That would just show me to be so weak

But that’s old school, like an antique

I’m too busy trying to create this persona

Until I am more fake than Santa

But at least Santa brings us toys

While we’re just being puppeted, trying to be a “real boy”

But, at least now we’re so powerful

Got all this money to make our lives so wonderful

Have all these girls rushing, looking for some gold

But when the money’s gone, it’ll drought like the dust bowl

So I guess money does buy happiness

For without it, life i just emptiness

Like my slate when I was first born

Before it was stung by earths poisonous thorn

What Then?

I wish I could stop time and keep living in today

Just wish that calendar page didn’t have to flip away

But the seasons around me keep rearranging

And the people around me just keep on changing

I can’t even recognize them anymore

They are not the same person as they were before

Selling themselves as another slave to this earth

Surrounding themselves in this life filled with filth

Just caving in to what this world is telling

Until this earthly place becomes their true dwelling

And all their conversations just seem to mix

All these guys just comparing their list

Talking about all the girls they’ve been sleeping with lately

Treating all these girls like they are nothing more than a trophy

Just throwing them in their case for collection

Just trying to portray this worldly projection

The same one we get from the movies and TV

Living like our lives are stuck on MTV

Because they try to pass it off as reality

Telling us that life is nothing more than sex and parties

And they are showing this all to our youth

Until it becomes something we crave like a sweet tooth

Now they’re all talking about how they’re so drunk and wasted

Thinking that alcohol is what happiness’ true taste is

And then in comes the sex

Kids act like this is how the will gain respect

Just trying to mirror the Jersey Shore

If only they knew that life was so much more

Than to just party and have sex

Because our bodies are not just another object

You can’t just use one and throw it away

Because your soul has entered them and it is there to stay

For even though it is your bodies having sex

It is really both your souls that connect

And dudes, all those girls that you are using

Each time it’s their souls you are bruising

Just think of it this way, we are all God’s children

And I don’t think the way you are using His daughter’s will thrill Him

But to this, the world is blind

Because on TV, this reality is no where to find

Because as the say “sex sells”

And this just leaves us all under some spell

So we just get stuck in the partying

Not knowing what all these actions may bring

Because we just want to fit in

Doing whatever the world is doing

So we just throw on this worldly mask

Trying to drown out our sorrows with nothing more than a flask

Thinking we will find the answer at the bottom of the bottle

So down the road of destruction we go full throttle

Too afraid to lay off the gas

But we all know this road won’t last

Eventually, we’re going to hit a dead end

What then?

This Dream

Some people never let their dreams leave the pillow
Never gain the courage to give their dream a go
Never give that dream a chance
They lift their head never giving it another glance
Return to their dreams only when they sleep
Too afraid to take that faithful leap
Too afraid that they may not succeed
When a little hope is all they really need
And the words "what if" are constantly in their thoughts
Because they left their dream on the pillow to rot
They never gave it the water it needed to grow
So if their dream could have made it they will never know
Because their opportunity has come and fled
But they never took their dream out of bed
They never took it out in the light
Never gave their dream a fight
Never even gave their dream a try
And that's something they'll take with them when they die
Never knowing what their dream could have been
Because they never let their dream begin
They never let their dream sprout
Because they were too filled with doubt
A dream is what happens in your unconscious mind
But if you give your dream a chance you'd be surprised what you'd find
This dream can be anything you want it to be
This dream can even become your reality
But if you just keep your dream in bed
Then that dream is nothing more than dead