His Response

We live our lives feeling so weary

I heard about God and just ask “Oh, where is He?

Cuz I’m waiting, but I don’t see Him

Does He even hear me? Cuz I need Him”

Cuz I was so lost, I had fallen so far off track

Thought there was no way that even He could bring me back

Saying “Oh, yeah, I’ve heard about His Son before,

But I don’t know what He was coming down to earth to die for

Oh they were ‘His people’? Then why’d they nail Him on the cross?

What was the message that He was trying to get across?

Oh yeah, He thinks he can save me, thinks He can be my spirit

Yeah I’ve heard the words, but bro I don’t need it

Thanks though, for the thought

But I’m just gonna send my soul down to hell to rot

There’s so much on this earth that I’d rather spend my life on

I don’t have enough time to spend on this Jesus man”

So I just didn’t

People told me His word, but I just didn’t listen

Just kept living my life in sin

Didn’t want to leave this life I was living in

Didn’t really notice how broken I truly was

Just trying to do the things that a normal kid does

You know, just drinking and hooking up

If my cup was ever empty I always had something to fill it up

Just drinking away all my sorrows

Living for the night and never for tomorrow

Because I already knew what tomorrow had in store

Because inside me there was always a raging war

And each day I battled

Each day I lived so rattled

Blowing up, just another explosion

My soul suffering from so much corrosion

Because I was just living in too much anger

Always said life was a bitch and I always did hate her

Sorry for the language, it’s just the only way to explain

All the things jumbling up in my brain

Because I was just throwing tantrums on the daily

Got so bad I knew even my family began to fear me

Just screaming in their face, just yelling and cursing

Not sure exactly what I was pursuing

Like I said, I was just so broken

Because the feelings inside went unspoken

Just inside me boiling up

Until one day I would just blow up

And I was a volcano constantly erupting

I was just so damn disgusting

Until one day I just broke down in tears

There’s gotta be more to life than what I’m living here

Then I heard this voice so pure

And I know it may sound obscure

But I knew that it was God Himself

And I knew He was there to free me from myself

Telling me that it didn’t matter how far I had fallen away

He had never left my side for a single day

Told me He was always there with His arm fully extended, but I never reached for it

Guess I was too busy living my life so foolish

But He told me my mistakes are forgiven

Said a new slate I am given

A new slate that can never grow dirty

Said it washed away all of my impurity

But I told Him, “Lord, I’ve sinned against you too much”

And He responded, “You are free from it with just a simple touch”

So He proceeded, touched my right in my heart

Told me He was giving me a new start

Told me my old self had just died

And there was now a new Holy Spirit inside

Told me I am now His child

And for the first time in a while, I smiled

And for the first time I believed these words

All the ones I had previously ignored

Because He reached down His arms to save me

And He told me He would never betray me

And for the first time in my life, the weight off my shoulders were lifted

And a second chance I was gifted

So I guess now I am just trying not to blow it

So I gave up my life and now the Lord owns it

The one who now lives inside me, forever bonded

Saved simply because He responded