Crippled Dreams

Dreams, they're a crazy thing

Sometimes there is nothing quite so frightening

Pouring your soul into this one desire

Burning fiercely inside like a fire

The only thing on your mind

The dream that you hope you might find

You want it so bad it's got you paralyzed

Because failure is an option you've just realized

Afraid that you may fail, afraid that you may fall

Pour out your soul, just to lose it all

Then you look at the other side of the spectrum

What may happen if success does come

What if it doesn't live up to your expectation

This thing that you have poured your life in

The dream that haunts your sleep

The dream that you've kept so deep

The dream your lips mutter and eyes scream

With each breath you breath this dream

You pray for this dream alone

Like it is the only thing you've ever known

Each thought is consumed

To this dream you've become its groom

But the fear of failure and the fear of success

Has crippled you from putting this dream to the test

The fear that they may not accept

That this dream they may reject

That you may be outcasted

And see this dream never lasted

So you hold onto this dream

Never to see what it could have redeemed

You're dreams speak no words to hear

Because you have been crippled by fear

Don't Waste It

There's only one life, spend it right, don't waste it

Spend it chasing dreams, not sitting there wasted

Pour out your soul in everything you do

Not pouring out your bottle so you can chase twos

Try to change the world, but only for the better

Give everything you got, and make nobody a debtor

Give your time, give your heart, give your soul in everything

Not wondering what your efforts may bring

Go the extra mile, go an extra two

And never wonder what they may do for you

Smile all the time, but only from your heart

Don't just smile so you can play the part

Love one another as you love yourself

Don't dwell on the past, you must forgive yourself

Let your anxieties go, throw them onto God

Rip away those chains for your freedoms been bought

Your bill has been paid, carried by the cross

Forget about evil, for it's already lost

Now the horns can't pierce and the fire can't burn

For grace has been given, it is nothing we can earn

Given by faith, never by our actions

We are all His children, just different complexions

We live different lives, but receive the same love

All are equal and no one is above

There's only one life, spend it right, don't waste it

Be confident in your path, for God's already paved it

100 Pieces

Life is a puzzle, that's all it really is

Each moment is just another piece

The here and now, that's just one piece

There's a much bigger picture

All you have to do is take the pieces

And put them all together

Each piece has it's perfect match

You just need to find it

Maybe that piece hasn't yet been made

So, you have to wait

For the pieces to fit together

So you can finally see that beautiful picture

Because there is nothing beautiful about 100 pieces

Just waiting to be put together

But it seems my pieces don't fit

So I just wait for the pieces to fall together

Because I know when they do

Oh, when they do

It'll be b-e-a-utiful

Oh, so beautiful

Would You?

If I closed my eyes could I see you again,
Go back in time to how things were back then?
If I muted the world could I hear you speak?
Get back my strength, cuz since you left I've been so weak.
If I held out my hand would you take it back,
Pick up my broken pieces and get me back on track?
If I gave you my heart could you help it mend,
Be my guard there to defend?
If we were given a choice, one day together or a million apart,
Would you give up your life and give me your heart?
If you could go back and change how things went,
Would you?

Oh, Come Sun

The clouds flood over my head

Blocking away the sun until the light is dead

The darkness of the clouds begin to pour out

Flooding the streets so the light can't be found

Raindrops hitting all around

Creating new obstacles on the ground

And all the darkness blocks my view

Blocks my sight, so it's no longer on You

I try to find my place

But the darkness has blocked my grace

As the storm continues

Just wishing it would be through

But the rain turns to thunder

All these noises make me wonder

Then come lightning streaks across the sky

Tries to pass off as true light, but I know that that's a lie

Giving false glimpses of hope

As darkness continues to scope

Looking for its next victim

Oh, light please come

For it seems the light has been drowned out

And I'm trying not to doubt

But I don't know when I'll see it again

As the cloud keeps on pourin'

I'm just looking for a sign

A rainbow, possibly, across the sky

Where's all that You promised us?

I need to be patient, I must, I must

And I wonder when this storm will be done

And the light can come back from the sun

To take away this darkness that I see

Oh, come sun, I plea, I plea

Price of Regret

Oh, what a heavy pillow you have

From all the dreams you have left on it

Each day and each night, they pile on

But you fear too much to pick them up

Fear too much to live them out

So they just remain

Silent, oh so silent

As you add on

Day after day

Night after night

Dream after dream

But they never move

So many excuses flood in your head

As you drown in the dreams that you left on your bed

As fear forces you to tie them down

Tie them down and never live them out

As the days go by

Your dreams never leave

For a dream is something that's hard to forget 

And no one can measure the price of regret

Don't Forget About us

I Am Full

Legs so long, like they would never end

Long blonde hair just flowing in the wind

Your beady blue eyes have me so lost

Your warmness has made my cold heart defrost

Your name playing in my head on repeat

You come near and my heart skips a beat

Reaching for your hand as our fingers intertwine

In a world of hell, but with you it's just fine

Your voice, the only sound I hear

I can't help but smile whenever you are near

I'll do anything to hear your gorgeous laugh

I've loved you since the first day, I'll never take that back

My soul just loves everything you are

Tattooed to my heart, so you can never be too far

The present of your presence, the only thing I need

I want you all to myself, guess you can call it greed

I will love you with everything I got

You complete me with everything I'm not

They say that opposites attract

Well I must be the devil, 'cause you're an angel, that's a fact

Before you, I was a boy so lost

But God came through, and to me you were tossed

Your halo so bright, to light up my path

'Cause i was suffering from the darkness of life's wrath 

I give you my soul, give you my heart

Praying that you and I will never be apart

So kiss my lips, connect to my soul

'Cause I am just a boy, but with you I am full

Sometimes

Sometimes I stutter when I talk

Sometimes I stumble when I walk

Sometimes I trip when I run

Sometimes I come and ruin all the fun

Sometimes I forget my name when I see her

Is it Ryan? I'm not really too sure

Sometimes I forget the answer in class

Sometimes I'm too nervous to even ask

Sometimes I don't know which 'to' to use

Sometimes I just feel confused

Sometimes I lie

Sometimes I cry

Sometimes I nod, because I don't want to ask 'what?'

Sometimes I'm the chicken that won't cross the road, because I don't have the guts

Sometimes I feel so insecure

Sometimes I act immature

Sometimes I'm not perfect

But I was made by a God who is

All In

Sometimes the hardest things in life is chasing after a dream. Chasing after something you really, really want, but fearing that you just don't have what it takes. Whether that dream be acting, singing, becoming a doctor, going to Harvard, or being the world's greatest hobo, we all feel that little bit of fear. And, sadly, that fear is sometimes enough to hold us back from ever truly reaching after that dream. So, instead of going after what we really want, we go the typical route of life for security: we graduate high school, go to college, major in whatever we can get a job in, graduate, maybe go to grad school, and live our whole lives in a cubical. But, in the end, what do you have? Nothing more than a heart of regret and a head filled with 'what ifs'.

Honestly, screw security. Who cares about what the world says we should do. Who are they to decide what we do with our lives? If you want to act, then act. If you want to make music, then make music. If you want to write, then write. If you want to be homeless...don't do that, that one should probably be avoided. The only thing we should be seeking out in life is happiness, not security. If you have a dream, chase it so fast, chase it so hard, chase it with all you got, chase with every single ounce of energy that your body possesses, so that at the end of the day you don't have to ask yourself 'what if', because you'll know. That's the only real security you need in life.

And often we fear that we won't have the support of our peers, fear that we may be teased, that we may be ridiculed. But, truth is, you will. Everything worth chasing in life has a group of critics on the other side. But if you don't bet on yourself, no one will. So take all your chips, take every single chip, and slide those all to the middle of the table. Put every chip that you have and place them on your dream. Don't be half in, quarter in, mostly in, but be ALL IN! If you really want something, if you really want it, then take all you've got and chase that dream. Chase it so fast, chase it so hard, chase it with all you got, chase it with every single ounce of energy your body possesses, so that at the end of the day you don't have to ask yourself 'what if', because you'll know. Yes, that needed to reiterated. Be all in. Because if you believe in yourself, they'll come around. So take your chips, be all in.

Forks in the Road

In life you come to forks in the road,

You can either go left or you can go right.

You make your decision, then you move on.

You go down a few more steps,

Maybe a couple miles, maybe a few feet,

Then you come to another fork.

You are then left to decide once more.

You decide, then it's done-

And life goes on. 

And you reach another fork,

And the pattern continues.

Not knowing, however, that each path 

Has it's own life.

Each direction, the left and right,

Both lead to whole new lives,

To whole new decisions,

To whole new endings and beginnings. 

Each fork in the road is like the flutter of a butterflies wing,

Swirling the world into a whole new direction. 

All based on that simple decision,

Left or right?

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I wait

I see your face, shining through my memories

And I can hear your voice in every single story

And God knows your name by heart, from every single prayer

You may be gone, but I always will care

Your name is permanently tattooed in my heart

Put it there so we will never be apart

Put it at the tip, so I don't ever have to dig

Have my arms spread, I love you this big

Wrapped around the world so many times they can never miss it

Just sitting here wishing you didn't have to exit

Exit my life, to never come back

I'm a train wreck, fell so far off the track

As the train's steam reaches for the heavens

Carrying every cried prayer with them

Every shout and every tear

All wishing that you were still here

But, like they say, every good thing ends

And my heart one day might mend

But until then, I wait

Tick-tock, tick-tock; I wait

God Overcomes

The cross symbolizes so, so, so much. But there is one thing that has just crossed my mind. Ready, set, read!!

Okay, so Jesus(the perfect man, God's son, fully God and fully man) was sentenced to the most brutal death one can imagine! He was beat with over 100 lashes(over double what is considered automatic death), he then is spit on, crowned by thorns (are you joking?? Could you imagine the pain?!), forced to carry an extremely heavy cross for miles and miles through a village of mocking people. He was spit at some more, punched, kicked, thrown to the ground, dirt kicked in his face, and received very gruesome taunts. Then after all of that was nailed to a cross, I said nailed to a cross!! Had nails hammered into both wrists and then had his ankles nailed together! Do you have any idea the pain it would be to receive nails through your flesh, nerves, tendons, muscles, bones? I don't want to know that pain.

Oh, and did I mention that this whole time He had the power to end all of this?? To end all the pain, to end all the torture! But He loved us SOO much that he didn't even NUMB a single nerve. He didn't numb out a single ounce of pain! He felt every single whip to his back, every nail, glass shard, and more that ripped his skin off, felt every single kick, felt every thorn to his head, felt the pain of carrying the cross, along with carrying every burden of every man, of every female to ever (I said EVER!) walk this earth(whether that be Adam, Eve, Abraham, Moses, Napoleon, Henry V, Shakespeare, Hitler, Stalin, me, you, and every single person that hasn't even yet been born).

Back to the point. Actually, all of this is the point.

All of this was put onto Jesus, the perfect man, the son of God, fully God and fully man. And what happens after all of this? He conquers death, yes I said conquers death!! Have you ever heard of a man who has been dead for three days, thrown in a tomb, had his heart stopped, no food, no water, no oxygen and then all of a sudden, three days later (BAM!) he's walking around completely alive? Nope, just Jesus! Could you imagine the power it would take to bring a man back from the dead? That is an insane amount of power and strength! But who has that strength? Oh, that's right GOD!!! God has the power, has the strength, and has the love to do so!!

So, if God was willing to put the perfect man, the son of God, fully God and fully man to death just so He could overcome it, then why should we ever be discouraged? Why should we ever fear? Why should we ever doubt?

We so quickly allow ourselves to get down when things aren't going completely as we planned. Well, next time you feel discouraged just remember this: God put Jesus through all of that so He could use Him to overcome death. So, what makes you think he won't use you to overcome whatever that obstacle in your life may be?

The Pursuit

In my opinion, the best worded phrase in a historical document* is found in the Declaration of Independence. This phrase is very renown and goes like this: 

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.

The part I want to focus on is the underlined, bolded, italicized part(so it cannot be missed!!); "the pursuit of happiness." Even our forefathers knew that happiness was not a given right, but the pursuit of it was. So, how do we then attain happiness?

Well, like stated, it is a pursuit. To pursue something is to seek after something; in this case, happiness. Happiness must be something we seek out every single day. We must seek happiness in all we do: in every breath, in every step, in every word, in every action, in every decision. The biggest lie that we can ever tell ourselves is that we are entitled to happiness. That we have worked so hard and we are now entitled to this. Truth is, we are only entitled to the pursuit.

So, whatever it is that you are going through in your life: whether it be a relationship, school, work, sports, acting, singer, whatever it is, you must pursue happiness. You must seek it out with all you've got! If you want to have that smile on your face, that smile that you actually mean, you have to seek it out in everything you do. There are many things in life that you can attain through connections or just pure luck, like landing that perfect job, meeting that dream producer, landing an audition in that dream movie. But, once you get that job, record deal, or leading role, what must you do? You must continually work at it, must continually grind, must continually seek it out! It is never finished, it is never accomplished, it is never done. It is a pursuit. 

Happiness is attainable, it is very, very attainable. But, where will you look for it? Guess it's just yours to pursue.





*Besides the Bible, of course.

Equal as Fork and Spoons

"All animals are equal, but some animals are more equal than others." Is that an Animal Farm reference? Yes, yes it is. This quote seems to be very relevant in my life right now. Maybe it is just me, but I feel that the people I sometimes find surrounded around me are very, very judging. It isn't necessarily just the words they are saying, but also has a large part in their tone and their body language. Don't get me wrong, I definitely deserve to be judged. I am bad, I am a sinner, I am a mess, I am a disgrace, I am a hypocrite. But there is only one person, one being, that I will ever let judge me; and that is God. I am sorry to those who may not be religious, but bare with me. Every person on this earth makes mistakes, I think we can all agree with that. And if we have made even one single mistake then who are we to judge another's mistakes? Exactly. We are nobody. We have no right. It would be like a fork judging a spoon for not being able to stab at its food, while a spoon laughs at a fork that cannot scoop up its soup. Bad analogy I know, judge me about it. We all possess our special skills. We may be able to do things that others can't, but we are also unable to do things that other people may be able to. We have no reason to judge any person.

So why did I start off with this quote? It is because I feel that society has planted this into our minds. We all walk around like we are the hot sh*t, like we are the bee's knees. Sorry to break it to you, but you're not. And neither am I. WE ARE ALL EQUALS. Not on different levels, we are all on the same level.

Okay, being religious we are consistently told this. But why do I feel like I am being judged more by my religious group of friends? Does it not say in James 4:11-12:

" ¹¹ Brothers and sisters, do not slander one another. Anyone who speaks against a brother or sister or judges them speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you are not keeping it, but sitting in judgment on it. ¹² There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?"

Those who consider themselves as being religious should know this better than anyone. Not because they are better, not because they are more worthy, but because these are the words that they have decided to live by. I am not saying that I do not judge, I definitely have my moments, I am saying this because I want to bring it to the light, to get people thinking about the topic. To those whom are religious this verse says that there is only one judge in this world: God.

And to those who are not religious does our Declaration of Independence not state:

"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal"

Was our country not based on this simple foundation? Yes, our country has struggled with this immensely over the course of it's history. But why should we continue with that? Are we not all fighting for acceptance, fighting for love?

For Jesus said in John 8:7:

"He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her."

I think it goes without saying that not a single man was able to throw a stone. So who are we to cast stones at our neighbors?

I challenge you all to take a look at your thought process. Look at how quick you may be to judge. And I challenge you to change that, to work on that, and, for the religious ones, to pray about that. This world would be a much better place if we didn't have to live in fear of being judged, fear of being excluded. Be the change that you want to see in the world. Thanks guys.

YOLO

YOLO- You Only Live Once

This, without doubt, has become one of the most overused phrases of this generation. Ever since Drake first released "The Motto" you can't go anywhere without hearing people use this acronym. Maybe, this is just another excuse people have so that they can feel the right to do anything they want. For example, you're eating a bowl of cereal, but all you have is a fork. YOLO! Or, all that's left is the butt of the bread. YOLO! Or, there's a full bottle of Jack Daniels. YOLO! Or, there's no more parachutes, but you really want to go skydiving. YOLO! Or, you've never jumped out of a moving car before. YOLO! Or, you have a fully loaded gun...okay, okay, okay. This is the annoying, obnoxious, overused YOLO that we are all used to today.

But, maybe, if we all look at the term YOLO in the correct manner we can find that it actually is a  very useful and helpful phrase. How many of you guys see a beautiful girl standing across the way, but are too afraid to go talk to her? And girls, how many of you have done this same thing with guys? How many of us have not gone in for a kiss, because we feared rejection? How many of us have not gone after a dream, for fear of failure? How many of us have not applied to our dream school, for fear of not being accepted? How many of us have quit something that we loved, because it wasn't the 'cool' thing to do? Fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of isolation, fear of embarrassment, fear of so many things keep us from achieving what we really, really desire in life. These are the situations that we need to be reminded that we only live once! We have one life, we have one chance, we have one opportunity. 

Sometimes doors may be repetitively opened, but maybe it is only open for a short while. Why should we just sit here and watch as it closes? We should we hesitate? Why should we watch that perfect girl, that perfect guy, that perfect job, that perfect friend, that perfect dream, that perfect opportunity slip right through our fingers? YOLO! You only live once! If you fail, then move on! What is the worst question that you can possibly ask yourself? WHAT IF? And what is the only way to avoid that question 100% of the time? By never letting your fears keep you from trying! If you always go for it, then you will always know what the result would have been! Eliminating 'what if' forever.

Don't let fear of failure, keep you from doing anything. The greatest minds in the world fail time and time again. But the difference is that they don't quit, they don't give up, and they don't let fear stop them! You only live once, you can either spend that life wondering what if, or you can spend that life knowing what if; because you never let fear stop you. 

Quotes:

"You never fail until you stop trying." 

“I have not failed, I have just found 10,000 ways that don’t work”

“Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.”

-Albert Einstein

"The only thing to fear is fear itself."

-Franklin D Roosevelt

"Don't let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game."

-A Cinderella's Story

"There are three types of people in this world: those who make things happen, those who watch things happen and those who wonder what happened."

-Mary Kay Ash

"You only live once, that's the motto...YOLO"

-Drake

 

 

What Does It Really Mean?

The word love, what does it really mean?
You don’t really know, until you really know 
Love, such a strong word
So, for now, I’ll use ‘like’
I like the way you never smile for photographs,
But rather make silly faces
I like the way you laugh,
at all my stupid jokes

I like the way you always support me,
No matter what it may be
I like how you’re always there to talk to,
When I feel so alone
I like how you blush,
When I tell you how beautiful you are
I like how you smirk,
Every time you make fun of me
I like how you also have a smart response,
When I try to make fun of you back
I like how you text me,
Just to say you miss me
I like how you talk with your hands,
But only when you’re mad
I like how you roll your eyes,When I say something dumb
I like how you never like to go to bed,
Before making up
I like how quickly you know,
When something is wrong
I like how quickly I forgot my past,
Because you told me it didn’t matter
I like how quickly I was able accept who I was,
Because you accepted me first
I like how took me so broken,
And made me brand new
Honestly, I only wrote this to see if it was true
And it is, I love you

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More Than Enough

Your smile, enough to get the butterflies fluttering
Your voice, enough to get my heart pounding
Your touch, enough to make my hairs rise
Your eyes, enough to leave me hypnotized
Every time I look at you I've got to stare for a while
And it's like my face was just frozen with this smile
I don't ever want to see you leave
This love is a feeling that we will always keep
I will never let it go
You've got me feeling things I thought I'd never know
I just love the things you do
Everything that has made me fall in love with you
The way you flinch when I whisper in your ear
When you're scared how you stand so near
And you grab my hand, like never let go, oh I never will
You took my heart, just came in for the steal
You keep it so safe, you hold it so close
They say love is a drug, well give me another dose
Yeah, just shoot it up in my heart
You've got me on my knees praying we will never fall apart
Love is a puzzle, good thing we fit perfectly
This love is forever, that is no hyperbole
They say love is a lot of work, well give me another shift
They say love is a disease, well I hope I never get over it
They say love is blind, then I don't want to see
You make my heart want to sing, so you can call it Glee
When it's dark out and I can't see where to go
I know I will always be led by the light of your halo
And when things get tough
I know your love will be more than enough
So take my hand and let's continue in this journey
We don't need anything but you and me
Forget the world, we’ll leave it in the past
Let it all fade, our love will be the only thing to last
I don’t need my old life, you are more than enough
I just need you and this never ending love

Money Can't Buy Happiness

Just because you buy an expensive umbrella,

Doesn’t mean the storm is over

Because even with it over your head,

There is still rain all over

And even with that umbrella

There is still rain that hits you

Because even though you have money,

Doesn’t mean it can protect you

Money is a luxury,

that can buy many things,

But happiness is something

Even money can’t bring

It can buy you toys

Buy you shiny cars,

Buy you fancy clothes that

Make you feel like a star

It can buy you vacations,

To travel all over

But just because you buy an expensive umbrella,

Doesn’t mean the storm is over

No Regrets

They say live life with no regrets,
Yet my decisions won’t leave my head.
Told you I wasn’t ready, but I knew deep down I was.
Said I didn’t have time, yet you were always on my mind.

Said I couldn’t do the distance,
yet it is our distance that is now killing me.
Always on my mind, always in my thoughts,
But I will never tell you that.

So I try to move on, forget we ever happened.
Forget about that night, and the many to follow.
Told all my friends that I didn’t like you,
There was no crush.
But now you are gone, the opportunity has left,
And now it is my heart that’s crushed.
I wish I could take it all back,
But they say live with no regrets.

Life's Handbook

No one ever said life was gonna be easy 
But there's a hand guide to help you through
A little thing called the Holy Bible
Written for me and you

Telling of stories of love conquering evil doers
A little king conquering the giant 
How grace was given through His sacrifice 
How every sin is forgiven, no matter how defiant 

For God says He will pull you through any struggle
Even when stuck in the the stomach of a whale
God's love is there, it is everywhere
It is unconditional, and it can never fail

Believe it or not you become whole in the brokenness
Because God gives you the strength when all hope seems lost
So sing praise in your tragedies 
Because there's always something found,when it seems everything is lost

The devil will try to strip you from everything 
Your crop, your stock, your kids, he'll even try to take your health
But God calls for us to be a faithful servant 
And to trust Him over any one else

Because His love will always deliver
From pain into His loving arms
Says do not be afraid, but be courageous 
Because I am here with you, and I'll protect you from every harm

No matter how far you have fallen
If you think you've slipped through the cracks
There's no area he cannot reach
And He can always bring us back

Through our struggles, our worldly struggle
He provides us with His power
Says with it you can conquer anything
So step up and do not cower

He says you are never alone
That He is always here
And every prayer we shoot up
He is always there to hear

Says any and every prayer will be answered
The way He knows best suits us
Says to believe in His actions
To know He is always there, telling us to trust

Telling us life is so much more than we are told in the media
What we see on the tv
That there's more than a full wallet
Telling us life isn't found in just being so greedy 

Life isnt found in the popularity 
Isn't found in the money and cars
Isnt found with the jewels 
Isn't found in being some star

Isn't found in the lustful actions
Isn't found in the women's body
Isn't found with that flat stomach
Isnt found in living life as some "hottie"

Isn't found in the one night stands
Isn't found in the materialist mounds
Isn't found from the human acceptance
Because God's love, is the only place life is found 

So when life gets tough and gets you down
Take yourself off the hook
For God says to put your misery on His shoulder
And just know,every answer,the only love you need,can be found in this very book

Real Men

My recording of this on YouTube

I hear all these people saying man up, man up, man up; but what does that really mean?

Is it really as simple as what we see onscreen?

Is it really solving problems with just bare fists,

Finding girls to manipulate and add to some list?

Never showing emotion, never dropping a tear

Never being scarred, because a man has nothing to fear?

Conquering all with that S on your chest

Gotta go out and prove you're better than the rest

Stacking up the money, collecting all those cars

Showing off to neighbors just to raise up all the bars

So now theyre so frantically trying to keep up with the Jones

Trying to take down your kingdom like Attack of the clones

All just trying to be that king of the mountain

Because a true man will always win

Business by day, party by night

Mullet of life describes it so right

CEO, stacking up the money

Then it's time to play boy, pick another bunny

Flipping through the magazine to find the perfect female

Because you know what her under your arm will tell

Just doing what you see on the tv

Use her all up, then leave her like debris

Find another woman, treat her all the same

Don't even bother to even learn her name

Yeah, because that's what men do

Yeah, you really think that's true?

A real man gets to the know the heart, before he ever meets the body

Because she's another soul, not just another hottie

Just because you leave the next day, doesn't mean your soul ever left her

Because it was also your soul that entered

And it was also her soul that you fooled with

And that can never be undid

So a true man doesn't care about some list

Because its all about quality, not the quantity you've kissed

And a man, doesn't care about some car

Doesn't try to live his life like some big star

Just need a roof not some crazy mansion

They don't need any extra attention

A real man is humble with his accomplishments

Doesn't throw them out, fishing for some compliments

A real man will help someone in need

Even behind closed doors, he doesn't need anyone to see

A real man can forgive, as God has forgiven us

And if he's ever wronged you, a real man will confess

A real man doesn't need to drink away his sorrows

Because even though today is tough, he knows theres no guaranteed tomorrow

A real man doesn't hide behind his humor

Doesn't allow those lustful images to attach to him like a tumor

A real man doesn't need to lie and cheat

A real man doesn't fear defeat

A real man doesn't run away

But will there ever be a real man to stay? 

Mother's Day

I’ve got to question why we have to set aside a day

To turn to our mom and say a little thanks

Just for 24 hours, and we think that is enough

When for us they’ve given so much up

I think we need to turn to them everyday and say thank you

Thank you mom, for everything you do

From all the nights that I kept you up crying as a baby

To all those grocery store tantrums, still crying like a baby

To all those baseball games and practices you drove me to

And I don’t think that I ever even thanked you

How you’ve always been there to support my every dream

When I was ever down, you were there to pick up my self esteem

Telling me I could be anything I wanted

If I ever did anything good, you’d always be there to flaunt it

And if I was ever out of line you were right there sternly

But you always put up with so much, like a Texas drive just listening to Barney

I love you and you love me

Guess we’re just one happy family

And I wouldn’t have it any other way

So mom, I want to give you more than just one day

I want my entire calendar to be filled with showing you love

Just want to grow into a son you can be proud of

Mom, I just wanna thank you for being there to turn to 

Without you, I don’t know what I would do

Probably just be dead in a ditch somewhere

Because I’d be nothing if you weren’t there to care

If you weren’t there to keep me in line

And mom, I owe you much more than just these simple little rhymes

Mom, I owe you my entire life

Because without you in my life I’d be living in strife

And I know so often I took you for granted
Yeah, I must admit it

And so often I showed you hate

But you still loved me anyways

Not once did you give up on me, even when I gave up on myself

You were always there to believe in me, even when there was no one else

And I thank God every single day that you are my mother

Because looking back I would prefer none other 

You taught me how to stand tall

How to get right back up when I would fall

When I was ready to give my dreams up

You were always there to cheer me up

You always lived your life so selfless

But me, I still lived so selfish

And I hate the person that I was to you

Acting like I didn’t even need you

Thinking that I deserved better

Not realizing I already had the best mother

Right in front of my eyes, I didn’t even notice

Where was I even looking, how did I not see it?

Well there’s no more of that, you can hold me accountable

Because that old me, I’m gonna disable

And the only switch that I will turn on 

Is to go and love that woman

The one who gave up everything

Just so that I could have anything

And even though your wallet was never full

You still always gave me a heart full of gold

Because your heart was always rich with love

Always so pure like a dove

Mom, I just want to show love to you every single day

Happy Mother’s Day

Mother's Day- Spoken Word

Six Feet Deep- Spoken Word

His Response

We live our lives feeling so weary

I heard about God and just ask “Oh, where is He?

Cuz I’m waiting, but I don’t see Him

Does He even hear me? Cuz I need Him”

Cuz I was so lost, I had fallen so far off track

Thought there was no way that even He could bring me back

Saying “Oh, yeah, I’ve heard about His Son before,

But I don’t know what He was coming down to earth to die for

Oh they were ‘His people’? Then why’d they nail Him on the cross?

What was the message that He was trying to get across?

Oh yeah, He thinks he can save me, thinks He can be my spirit

Yeah I’ve heard the words, but bro I don’t need it

Thanks though, for the thought

But I’m just gonna send my soul down to hell to rot

There’s so much on this earth that I’d rather spend my life on

I don’t have enough time to spend on this Jesus man”

So I just didn’t

People told me His word, but I just didn’t listen

Just kept living my life in sin

Didn’t want to leave this life I was living in

Didn’t really notice how broken I truly was

Just trying to do the things that a normal kid does

You know, just drinking and hooking up

If my cup was ever empty I always had something to fill it up

Just drinking away all my sorrows

Living for the night and never for tomorrow

Because I already knew what tomorrow had in store

Because inside me there was always a raging war

And each day I battled

Each day I lived so rattled

Blowing up, just another explosion

My soul suffering from so much corrosion

Because I was just living in too much anger

Always said life was a bitch and I always did hate her

Sorry for the language, it’s just the only way to explain

All the things jumbling up in my brain

Because I was just throwing tantrums on the daily

Got so bad I knew even my family began to fear me

Just screaming in their face, just yelling and cursing

Not sure exactly what I was pursuing

Like I said, I was just so broken

Because the feelings inside went unspoken

Just inside me boiling up

Until one day I would just blow up

And I was a volcano constantly erupting

I was just so damn disgusting

Until one day I just broke down in tears

There’s gotta be more to life than what I’m living here

Then I heard this voice so pure

And I know it may sound obscure

But I knew that it was God Himself

And I knew He was there to free me from myself

Telling me that it didn’t matter how far I had fallen away

He had never left my side for a single day

Told me He was always there with His arm fully extended, but I never reached for it

Guess I was too busy living my life so foolish

But He told me my mistakes are forgiven

Said a new slate I am given

A new slate that can never grow dirty

Said it washed away all of my impurity

But I told Him, “Lord, I’ve sinned against you too much”

And He responded, “You are free from it with just a simple touch”

So He proceeded, touched my right in my heart

Told me He was giving me a new start

Told me my old self had just died

And there was now a new Holy Spirit inside

Told me I am now His child

And for the first time in a while, I smiled

And for the first time I believed these words

All the ones I had previously ignored

Because He reached down His arms to save me

And He told me He would never betray me

And for the first time in my life, the weight off my shoulders were lifted

And a second chance I was gifted

So I guess now I am just trying not to blow it

So I gave up my life and now the Lord owns it

The one who now lives inside me, forever bonded

Saved simply because He responded

A Place In My Heart

It’s crazy to look at all the things we’ve seen,all the place we’ve been, all the friends that we           have made

And no matter how much our lives have changed, how the pages have flipped, all the                       memories we’ve made, they will never fade

Throughout all the seasons, throughout all the years

Y’all have been the friends, to stay throughout the tears

And it doesn’t matter about the miles we’re apart

All of you will always have a place in my heart

For when I go back and tell the story of my life

I will tell how you were there for me day and night

And I know now, most of our lives have changed

We’ve gone different paths and our priorities have rearranged

But y’all are still the ones who influenced me the most

Because when I was down, it was you who gave me hope

And when I look back at the memories we had

I can’t help but smile and wish I could have them back

And I’ll always hate myself for taking those days for granite

Guess I never knew one day they would vanish

From all those recesses that we spent playing skill

To all those long days we spent on the baseball field

And playing Just Dance all through the night

At the football games yelling,”fight, fight, fight”

To all those movie nights we had on the weekend

Why did all those times have to come to an end?

So I guess I just wrote this to let you know

Even though we’re spread apart, I will never let those times go

Yes our lives have changed and we’ve gone different ways

But even  as the years pass, I’ll always remember the days

So even though we are all miles apart

All of you will always have a place in my heart

Poisonous Thorn

I came into this world, nothing but a clean slate

But didn’t take long for the world to fill my plate

Filled it with its lies and all its corruption

Filled it with its dark images of destruction

Showing me how to lie, steal, and cheat

Stuck this all on my plate, the only thing it gave me to eat

So with this, the world started to form me

With each experience it began to mold me

All starting with this thing called love

How it’s always there until things got tough

Because we stand at the altar and say those “holy vows”

Really we’re just lying straight to our future spouse

The world telling me that love expires

Because this world is just filled with cheats and liars

Telling me that I just shouldn’t trust

That all my decisions should be made purely on lust

Find a nice girl with a nice little booty

Because the only thing that matters in this world is beauty

And now that I’ve got this hot little spouse

I need to go work on that palace like house

Just focus on the money, ‘cuz it can buy happiness

No need to be nice, ‘cuz the world just loves sassiness

Just have to destroy and rule all that I can

Because power is the only thing that can make me a man

And there is no way I can say how I feel

Got to keep acting fake, ‘cuz this world just ain’t real

There’s no way I can show any emotion

Nah, this would start too big of a commotion

That would just show me to be so weak

But that’s old school, like an antique

I’m too busy trying to create this persona

Until I am more fake than Santa

But at least Santa brings us toys

While we’re just being puppeted, trying to be a “real boy”

But, at least now we’re so powerful

Got all this money to make our lives so wonderful

Have all these girls rushing, looking for some gold

But when the money’s gone, it’ll drought like the dust bowl

So I guess money does buy happiness

For without it, life i just emptiness

Like my slate when I was first born

Before it was stung by earths poisonous thorn

What Then?

I wish I could stop time and keep living in today

Just wish that calendar page didn’t have to flip away

But the seasons around me keep rearranging

And the people around me just keep on changing

I can’t even recognize them anymore

They are not the same person as they were before

Selling themselves as another slave to this earth

Surrounding themselves in this life filled with filth

Just caving in to what this world is telling

Until this earthly place becomes their true dwelling

And all their conversations just seem to mix

All these guys just comparing their list

Talking about all the girls they’ve been sleeping with lately

Treating all these girls like they are nothing more than a trophy

Just throwing them in their case for collection

Just trying to portray this worldly projection

The same one we get from the movies and TV

Living like our lives are stuck on MTV

Because they try to pass it off as reality

Telling us that life is nothing more than sex and parties

And they are showing this all to our youth

Until it becomes something we crave like a sweet tooth

Now they’re all talking about how they’re so drunk and wasted

Thinking that alcohol is what happiness’ true taste is

And then in comes the sex

Kids act like this is how the will gain respect

Just trying to mirror the Jersey Shore

If only they knew that life was so much more

Than to just party and have sex

Because our bodies are not just another object

You can’t just use one and throw it away

Because your soul has entered them and it is there to stay

For even though it is your bodies having sex

It is really both your souls that connect

And dudes, all those girls that you are using

Each time it’s their souls you are bruising

Just think of it this way, we are all God’s children

And I don’t think the way you are using His daughter’s will thrill Him

But to this, the world is blind

Because on TV, this reality is no where to find

Because as the say “sex sells”

And this just leaves us all under some spell

So we just get stuck in the partying

Not knowing what all these actions may bring

Because we just want to fit in

Doing whatever the world is doing

So we just throw on this worldly mask

Trying to drown out our sorrows with nothing more than a flask

Thinking we will find the answer at the bottom of the bottle

So down the road of destruction we go full throttle

Too afraid to lay off the gas

But we all know this road won’t last

Eventually, we’re going to hit a dead end

What then?