Be Still

I’m lost and everything is gone

Trying to find the light, but I’ve been going at it all wrong

Writing down these words talking about Him

Writing about His light, when for me it was shining so dim

Writing these words for my own selfish reward

While saying I was giving the glory to the Lord

But really I was hoarding it all to myself

Throwing Him up on my shelf

Like He’s just a trophy I’m trying to show off

Only turning to Him when things got tough

Not praying for His will, only praying for success

And then go around saying, "God bless"

Like I even knew what He was about

My heart wasn’t in it, but my mouth would still shout

Like I was just putting on a show for my peers

But it’s just left me so broken, so out come the tears

I’m lost and I don’t know where to go

I’ve been faking it for so long, but now, Lord, I really want to know

I want to feel and know who You really are

My old life is gone, but leaves a reminder like a scar

A remind of what I was and why I’m never going back

I want a new life, I want a new track

So, Lord, I give it all to You

Tell me what You want me to do

I’m on my knees, screaming out Your name

I’m for real this time, tired of playing games

Tired of lying and tired of sneaking

From now on, Lord, You are all that I’m seeking

You’re all I want, You’re all I need

I am here to carry out Your deed

My soul is screaming out

I’m ready to get out of this drought

Because what is success if I am all alone

I am nothing without the Man on the throne

Without the Man on the cross

So everything I have, I count it all as loss

I’m starting over, starting brand new

I have a new a focus, and that focus is You

You took my broken pieces, glued me back to one

Despite my continuous failures, You see none

I look in a mirror and think how pitiful

But You say I’m good, You say that I’m beautiful

Before You, I ran around the world, a one man squad

But You said be still, and know that You are God

That You will be exalted among the nations, exalted in the earth

You say I wasn’t created for earth, but I was created for more worth

So, Lord, I give You everything I’ve possessed

Because You say put these earthly things to rest

So, Lord, I drop everything to follow You

I’m starting over, starting brand new